Monday, October 31, 2005
HAHA
HAHAHA
HAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHA
i feel so liberated.
finally exams are over:)
ok.
though i screwed up the chi o's.
and i have to start the "dangou slimming programme"
ya.
lets go!!!!
ok.
fine...
AHHH!!!!!!!this sun go cheng san cc and die
cox i didnt touch my dizi ever since last tue la.
and last tue i didnt really practise much
die~~~
abit the pple there so pro
hai...
DIE~
and the conductor very fierce
or at least he LOOKS very fierce.
hai...
went out with zhenling,awyong,sharon and jiehui today:)
celebrate end of exams:)
haha..
went swensons.
the guy really very act shuai lor...
come and slide here and there
then act charming when he was lighting the candle for awyong
HAHAHA
fine...
i stop harping ok?
ya.
ate some disgusting baked rice
9.90 la!!!
damn disgusting
even more disgusting than the $2 chicken rice at my house market.
horrible..
but the ice cream totally rocks:)
i love mango and cookies & cream...
totally rocks.
when you eat the mango you will feel like smiling to yourself one lor
like this : ^^
haha
then i act like a childish freak after i eat the mango.
haha
cookies & cream rocks also
or acty i like mango and cookies & cream all along
^^
ya...
after that i discover to turn "act cute"
haha
especially when i was not allowed to go home
:'(
haha...
i saw so many cool things i want to buy la!!!
the pencil box with the feather thing $32.
wa~~
but i like it.
looks very cool
though zhenling deems its not my style.
haha.
fine...
and the voodoo doll thing that hs and wj claims they will buy for me but didnt buy.
very cute!!!
and the black peppermint at mini toons!!!
grrr.
when i am only left with ten cents i have to see it
the box very nice la!!!
grr...
fine.
i want!!!
and i want jenny's bag!!!
very cool laa.....
humphs.
ok..finally i can take a nice break.
3days of holiday.
deepavali day
new curriculum day and
hari raya puasa day!!!
btw,
TRICK OR TREAT?!?!
hehehehehehe.
flew into your heart at [9:24 PM]
Sunday, October 23, 2005
i believe not many know about the SCO camp im supposed to go last year.
i decided i have to let everyone know about this
that im not exactly critical and strong like how i look on the outside
i never told anione about this
and i told a lie to kristine and all of you guys.
im really really sorry
i know you all may look down on me for this
but i really cannot take it anymore
and if time goes back,
i cant guarantee i wont make the same mistake again.
last year march
i do not want to get into the SCO camp at all.
but the seniors said i should go
at least for the audition
so i went
because i did not have enough courage to stand up and say i dont want to go
so i thought i could just screw up the audition so i wont get in
but i realise my hao sheng doesnt allow me to do this
so i practised and went for the audition
although i practised quite hard
i screwed it up.
i was only a very new sec 2 with 5 months of playing experience
and it was the seniors who drilled me
the scales SCO gave was like hindu words to me
and i thought they were all 5 for tong ying
and when the judges said it was not
i came as a shock to me
i thought i would be booted out then
so i said ill nv get in
but,
i got in
i was soo happy.
becox the seniors were so happy
they said i was the next after grace
and grace was really pro according to them
she looked pro too
ya
so i felt good
but not so when i went for the first practice
when i stepped into the room
i felt so cold
the aircon was blowing mad
i felt very cold
not just physically but emotionally
i had no friends
i was alone at dizi
and im extremely afraid of being alone
afraid of being lonely
i tink ill nv learn to overcome this
im really afraid of aloneness
and i can feel the feeling which i got when i was stuck alone in the lift
the heart shivers.
have you all felt it before?
i was helpless.
after this when i realised all the others had teachers who taught them all the songs and they were all well prepared,
i asked my teacher at that time, mr wong, for help
i thought
with some honing i would be alone to catch up with those who are flying
perhaps with walking.
but guess what
mr wong nv taught me anitink
he just listlessly flipped thru the scores
and said "this one like this, this one like that" to a ignorant sec 2
LIKE WHAT??????????
i learnt to hate him for this
he nv helped me
if now i got in again and i give the scores to tony hong and ask him to teach
will he teach?
i duno.
i cant harbour high hopes now
because i suffered because of this high hopes i carried
i learnt to throw them aside
"qi wang yue da, shi wang yue da"
i learnt to hate mr wong
i learnt to hate his irresponsibility
Just like him when he left w/o a word
w/o even telling liu or huo
this caused us to be teacher-less for 2 or 3 months
do you know how much could be done in this 2 to 3 months?
but sn dizi was teacher-less for this long time
because he left w/o a word
because he didnt tell liu so that liu could arrange a new teacher for us
WHY???
why did you all even bother to cry so sadly?
when he could just leave so suddenly
w/o caring two hoots about us being teacher-less.
and wasting so much time
w/o caring how much i died at the sco camp
even the da G i needed was borrowed from my guzheng teacher
i asked wong for help
but he merely said his is borrowed by another person
you all may tink im very ungrateful
he taught us for so long
taught us many things
how can you scold him like that?
so ungrateful
so mean
so wang en fu yibut did wong help us?
the dizi?
yes
he lowered all our keys when we couldnt reach them
and not teach us the technique to reach them
i rmbed all our bing ma yong was taught by yu fei
the flowers at bing ma yong dizi solo
wong taught us the wrong keys
wong taught us the wrong fingering
and we had to change everything again with yu fei comes
how can you expect me to "give him mian zi"??!?!?
say im ungrateful and mean for all i care
so what if you are his friend
i dont care
that doesnt change my perception of him
ill nv forget how much i went thru at the SCO camp
i felt so terrible that i ponned the rest of the practices
i felt so terrible that i skipped the rest of the SCO camp after going for the mon one
you all can say
im also very irresponsible for leaving
just didnt want to go after one day
so disgraceful
throw st nick's face
waste pple's space for SCO camp
so many pple want to get in
but you just gave up after one practice
but how many of you bothered to ask me how i feel when i had to lie to you all that i had menstrual overflow just because i couldnt stand it animore?
you all just took it that im irresponsible
that im a slacker
useless
lousy
freak
im very sorry for this
i really canot take it animore
im only a sec 2 with 5 months experience of playing dizi
i dont deserve such good honour of getting into the SCO camp
i dont deserve it
and i cant take it
can you imagine how helpless when everyone was so pro with their thoughtful teachers going thru everyting for them
and me
a patheic sec 2 with less than half a year experience of dizi
having to undergo all this
i was practically not playing at all
i couldnt play anitink
i only knew the 5 as xuan gai.
but there in front of me are alien diaos with A,B flat,D and everything could be
no one helped me
i had to help myself
if you do not have private lessons and a teacher to guide you along
will you be able to hold on?????
and i didnt want to go in the first place
can you imagine how terrible i felt when i thought i will nv be able to go thru the whole thing?
can you imagine how horrible i felt when i lied to liuxuan, kristine and all the co pple?
i felt that i have to own up now
i cant take it ani longer
even if i dont say you all will also say
i might as well own up myself
i hope i will be able to survive at cheng san cc with sharon
i may look strong the outside
tough and critical
not allowing ani one to bully me and onli i bully others
but im not as strong as i look outside....
fine.i have decided to believe tony hong.cox hes damn nice.
haha.sorry if i sounded quite solemn
i hope you all will not look down on me for this history of mine.
im still the cheerful peiqi^^
flew into your heart at [7:27 PM]
kiasu-ism
what drives the human population.
haha...
ok i admit.
i AM a VERY VERY VERY kiasu person
sry lor
haha....
one out of my many bad traits
hehe.
i cant stand not having the same as others
and i cant stand being weaker:'(
hao sheng
wad you all call it.
take next tue as an example
im GOING
believe it or not
voluntarily.
cox im scared ill lose out.
heh.
later tony hong teach them all the impt things then we lose out how?
and 2 hours less of studying wont make a difference.
hehe.
i hope it doesnt though.
must work hard for o's.
JIA YOU lim pei qi!^^
flew into your heart at [2:44 PM]
Sunday, October 16, 2005
flood flood~~~
A HA HA HA HA HA>>>>
hai.....
KIONG BIONG BIONG
nvm.im just mad.
XIAO ZHU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i tink he just rocks my socks!!!!
SHUAI!.
and hes damn sweet:)
flew into your heart at [7:08 PM]
Saturday, October 15, 2005
many a times i hope im alone
i can do anitink i want
not under the eyes of anione
i hope i have my own com
no one allowed to share it with me
i can do wadeva i want with it
save wad i want inside
and not always snatch the com or wadeva
hai...
but how long will it take?
im really quite irritated.
want to use com also canot
always got someone there
hogging the com and giving you the "tsk" look when you want it
i want a com to watch my shows.
to do wadeva i want
to post on blogs
to design my blog template
to talk rubbish.
save all my things inside
not like now
having to live under the eyes of someone or that irritating "tsk"
i hope im alone
i hope im alone
and no one is allowed to use that "com" of mine.
how i wish.
hai...
SAVE MONEY!!!!!!!!!
for my 1st wish
a LAPTOP!!!!!!
:)
flew into your heart at [8:51 PM]
Friday, October 14, 2005
hai....
i tink im dead.....
xiezhi----renfu-----------weijian-junyang--dangou,xiaozhu
haha...
i keep changing my idols la
haha
and now i tink 5566 is totally disgusting
they keep wearing tight pants!!!!
i dun understand ok?!
and now is like,
they nv improve
and renfu's muscles are gone!
now he's like ah pek lidat
and i hate his hair
ok
so im done with them
i like renfu for four years ok?!?!
v long liao la.
next is weijian
haha
superstar time.wa.
WEIJIAN SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wa.
after he got out
like some shit
sing wad i also duno
must look at subtitles one
then is junyang!!!
AH!!!
so CUTE!!!!
after superstar ended,
no feeling liao
haha
the super funkies is quite stupid to me
canot stand the completely fake way they zu chi
with all sorts of weird expressions on their faces
wa lao
and horrible chi vocab
grrr
no "standard"
then dont have nei han one
unlike qun yi fong or guo liang
ya
i tink they have a lot of stuff in their head and their own ideas about things
unlike those ten pple who just went on with the hosting with notink in their heads and then just turn out like fools.
horrible.
ok.
dangou,xiaozhu
haha
dang ou is damn cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he's damn cute
but i dont like shan jun hao
so dao.
i tink i got a special preference for those toot toot childish and pure guys.
dangou looks like a little kid when he smiles.
damn cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then he will have this act cute innocent face
so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and got muscles lehh...
i hate scrawny guys.
er erm.
XIAOZHU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*screams the roof off*
ok.
im very childish
in the past,
cox i like 5566 wad.
then they dont like xiaozhu
so i totally boycott him
but i still think he's damn funny
and his dances totally rocks
though i dont want to admit
and i tink his songs have special meanings
not shallow like 5566's.
he composes!!!!
so cool~
now i dont like 5566,
no committment
haha
so i can like him now
haha
who cares man
but no committment also
i just like him
so cute!!!!
and now he's like damn shuai with his new hairstyle
and his new dance ROCKS
with jolin
i love lei gui moves
i tink its damn cool
i tink jolin now also rocks
not that chao act cute girl la
and shes damn sexy
but sometimes her mouth look very big
duno y
ok back to xiaozhu
i tink he's damn sweet
i rmb once he said he called up a fan when it was her bdae.
so sweet!!!!!
if it's mi i tink i will faint
and he goes online to chat with fans and everytink
not like 5566
dao de yao zi
whole day say they WONT go online
irritating...and keep saying they v popular at spore
pui
want to come, come
dont wan to come, they come after like half a year and say hao jiu bu jian.
wadeva
go and die lor....
when you go to his fansite
its like damn wen xin one
not like 5566's one
whole day quarrelling
duno bout wad.
grr.
and he's chao talented.
he dances well
he sings well
he zu chi well
and i love his mo fang
chao xiang!!!!
then v cute.
he will have v cute reactions when he's nervous though
haha
still v cute
on tv he looks quite ok leh
feel like going to see him in person when he comes to singapore to promote
but now he's getting more popular la
im scared he will become like 5566 lidat
hai...
cox he will have too many fans and everything
and alot of pple will fake him and cheat pple and everything.
hope it doesnt happen
hope he and his fans can stay chao sweet and cute
haha
even when he crys, its like a kid*hint hint:my type"
ya...
so cute!!!
jia you, xiao zhi!!!
haha...
i tink its damn weird.
haha
rmb when 5566 first came out with MVP lover
not so popular hor
then when i started to like them for 1st album,
they suddenly became damn popular
and the 2nd album j6 thingy,
i went
and got A LOT of pple
haha
i tink is the most la
20,000?
ya
its really A LOT.
then 5566 was at its peak la.
then i started to hate them during the period after ge dou.
cox i tink they are not improving
then they started to walk down slope
haha
now they r like quite unpopular in spore?
who ask them so arrogant.
and sun zong
whole day go and scold pple
you tink ur 5566 very good ar.
whole day go and scold pple
then you will see 5566 fans shielding them
but its obviously 5566 in the wrong la
canot stand it
so HOLD AND BEHOLD,
now they are totally quite dead.
then i now i like xiaozhu
a~~e~~~~~~
now he suddenly become very popular
haha
looks like my opinion is very much like the rest
haha
I LOVE XIAOZHU!!!!!
chao cute
chao shuai
chao sweet
muack muack.
flew into your heart at [6:59 PM]
Friday, October 07, 2005
DANG OU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he totally ROCKS!
i want DANG OU!!!!
haha.
ok
week of exams.
screwed exams
flew into your heart at [4:59 PM]
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