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Friday, November 18, 2005

hai...
i discover my recent posts are all quite depressed.
haha..
i tink i need a job desperately.
haha...
tsk.
my sis is going to finish her o's today.
hai..
then she can go and work and earn money la!!!
so unfair!!
i want also.
humphs.

hope i can convince my mother la..
pls pls pls pls pls pls...
i want to be pro
so cool lor:)

and i want to play better
or at least have a forte or sometink
i know guzheng i know archery
but i dont seem to be very pro in all
like half bucket water one la.
if i dont take lessons i tink my dizi will end up like that also.
which is sometink i want to avoid at all cost.

im starting to miss huiqing...
haha..
looking forward to tomolo of course.
and btw,
are we going KTV or not?
i wana go leh
haha
NOT going campus superstar la.
NOT.

and sharon is full of crap.
she says if girls from mixed schools flirt,
the others dont tink they are flirting
cox the school got a lot of boys.
they DONT need to flirt.
and she says if girls from all girls schools flirt,
the others WILL tink ther ARE flirting.
cox the school got no boys
and others will say they are DESPO.

???
then i tried to explain to her that it is your body language and your tone/yu qi that affects whether others will tink you are flirting or not
and in the first place,
y must pple flirt?
she says its to attract attention
but you can attract attention using many other ways wad.
like being extremely good in sometink or wadeva.
and NOT by flirting.

EQ:

ok.
in chengsan cc,
both of us got to know of a girl from mayflower secondary(mixed school)
lets call her A.
ok.
if she says to a guy there,
"hey.eee.this picture you very fat and ugly lehhh...ha ha ha" and continues nudging and saying in a flirtatious way.
will the others say she is flirting?
she says,"yes."
ok.
if another girl from a all girls school
lets call her B
if she says to the same guy in the same way
will the others say she is flirting?
she says,"yes."
ok

if A says to the same guy
"hey.ee.this picture you very fat and ugly la.haha..." and then laughs casually at the horrible picture
will the others say she is flirting?
she says,"no."
ok
if B says this to the same guy in the similar way
will the others say she is flirting?
she says,"no."

SEE???
the focus should not be on which school A or B is in,
but in the way A and B present themselves and the attitude they portray.

if everyone tinks like sharon
i tink this world will be so dead.
haha.
joking.

ok.
and then everytime i present this logical explanation to her in a chronological way,
she says she doesnt understand me.
do you all understand???*if anione is reading pls ans me"

ya.
so we spent half an hour on this issue yesterday.

hai...
not going for dazu this sun.
going somewhere else.
NOT superstar, for goodness sake.
i once said i want to join but later discover it is quite stupid.
pple's tongue will wag la.
then i can forget about raising my head in st nicks ever again.
better coop myself up in some ktv room and sing to my friends.
haha.
ok.
so im just going for xiao zu
hai..
acty i didnt know how me and sharon got landed up in some performance also.
haha.
next year.
i tink we are pretty screwed though
cox next year is the o's and we still have this to manage
and of course it wil be chao hard to manage
especially since we are super lousy.
i got back some confidence during dazu though
even when we only played for less than one hour for the whole 3 hour da zu
and the rest of the xiao dizi except lynn was snubbed at by huo lao shi...
she said my xiao dizi was nice:)
and i could still manage to teach denise something = make her dimo more loose

but i guess this little bit will die away on sun again.
last week was ok
since we didnt join in the sectionals lianing
but only sat with the mayflower girls practising our own stuff.
though we only dare to start playing after 11+
haha.
b4 that i was busy pasting my dimo with my new dimo box:)
but was quite shi bai
i tink i should go back to ther basics ---- how to paste dimo properly
cox everytime i paste,the lines are chao irregular and when i try to tighten the dimo it breaks.
wadeva
in the end, sharon did it for me and it was ok.*can you imagine how shibai i am?"
then play a few songs here and there
thought my wo shi yi zhi bing and qi wu de wan ju was weird.
especially the latter's tu ku tu ku part.
sounds quite shit and unpolished.
a bit lao huo yesterday ask if dizi have another du zou or qi zou songs and i was busy lianing my fingering.
then i thought they will answer so i ignore her
to tink everyone looked towards me and ask ME
wt.
so i said "yes."
and they moaned.

hey stop it lor.
it's true that we have wad.
im sick of deceiving the teachers and myself.
y should i cock up this kind of thing cox even if i say no, huo will go and look for tony hong and bug him about not having ani songs
when we have TWO

...
ya...
my fault.
if the time comes, i play lor
i maluate myself so many times already wad>.<

so sian.
tink i should go and practise somethink now...
and i miss HUIQING!:)

i miss huiqing!!!
i miss huiqing!!!!
i miss huiqing!!!!!
i miss huiqing!!!!!!
i miss huiqing!!!!!!!

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