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Saturday, April 09, 2005

-----a day of failures.
-----a group of failures
-----haha

i really hope i dont feel this way
but the fact is i do
y are pple critisizing at this point of time?
its two weeks away
its 14 days away
we are already putting in our best efforts.
we pract quite a lot you noe?
y are we so condemned?
does SNCO not need dizi so much?
or are we too lousy?
or are we too LOUD?
i have been hearing
how OUT AND LOUSY dizi is
until i decide to go for tuition earlier.
if you dont get it
it can be VERY DEMORALISING
to hear critisizms even when we have been putting our best efforts.
and if you didnt realise
someone cried
because canot play that part properly
and i have been feeling rather depressed nowadays
i dont understand
we are in the same long boat
wad gives u the right to come over to our end
dig a hole
then go back to our own end and say" haha.youre drowning."
heeellllloooo?
arent you going to drown too?
if you didnt realise
when we tink we are a bit better
then all i hear is
how LOUSY dizi is today
how OUT it is
how UNCOOPERATIVE i am
how its going to DRAG the whole CO DOWN THE DRAIN
how SHITIFIED our playing is
wa wa wa
we may be very lan
but i don tink cello erhu zhongruan is as good either
not being offensive here
just tinking
just because we are LOUD doesnt give you all the right to SWEEP YOUR PROBLEMS DOWN THE CARPET AND PRETEND YOU ARE THE GREATEST PRO ON EARTH AND YOUR WONDERFUL PLAYING CAN ROCK THE JUDGES OFF THEIR CHAIR IN S.C.H
im sorry
no such thing
each section has tis own problems
but at this point of time
don you all tink we should cheer each other on and give encouragement and motivate each other instead of CRITISIZING ALL THE WAY AND THINKING DIZI IS THE WORST INSTRU on earth
ya
ONCE DIZI COME IN, THE THING IS LIKE SHIT
ya ya
wadeva others do is good
wadeva WE do is bad
bad bad bad
until its like
shit shit shit
FINE
if you didnt realise
dizi has been feeling rather FAILURE-ic these days
or at least sharon is
i have been thinking through a lot
are we really going to drag the whole CO down to the drain?
is the commentary only going to say
how lousy dizi is
how shit our yin is
how shitified everything about dizi is
if it is
why does SNCO even NEED dizi?
if you go ask huo
i HOPE we have been making improvements
havent we?
or at least A BIT better
but either than her
all i hear is
dizi dizi dizi
shit
shit
shit
shit
shit
shit
shit
shit
shit
shit
DIZI
is
SHIT
isnt it?
everytime it is dizi
is it onli us that suck?
at this point of time
can snco STOP pointing fingers at each other?
other schools have been encouraging each other on
like my friend's school
but we are pointing fingers at each other
how are we going to coordinate properly when we tink another sucked so much?
i tink this is the biggest problem SNCO is facing rather than our techniques
if we dont solve this problem
in this 2 weeks
im not surprised at another COP
dont even tink of bronze.
not pinpointing anyone.
those above are really wad i tink
i don care if i offend pple
if wad i say is not true then just spam my board and say wad a childish freak i am.
cox thats really wad has went thru my mind this few days.......

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