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Friday, December 24, 2004

hmm...since im so bored at home, i shall crap my ren sheng dao li on my newest SELF MADE BLOG!.hehe.cox im too bored.
ok.sometimes when you really feel like breaking down, you cry.thats wad everybody does.i do also although i look like one whu will destruct things when im sad.:D
when you feel that your loved ones are all gone and your plans are all undone, sometimes it's just urself giving urself pressure.ya.its really notink.notink really happened.everything is still the same.its just u are thinking too much about it so you keep dwelling on the memories till they become distorted and everything just seems so sad.in reality, everything has just been the same.its just your mentality causing chaos. so, if you have a sad memory, tell the real truth= wad happened, the whole process to a true friend who wont take the cat out of the bag and confide in her.the TRUTH.it must be wad REALLY happened, and not wad you THINK really happened.
ya.give urself less pressure.haha.and just moaning is useless.you can talk to him to noe y he reacted like that.wads the reason?character?infatuation?or wad?its useless moaning to urself.
show him you are happy and you can live better without him. and not stick to him and expressing words that say you love him forever and will wait for him blah blah blah.its really doing notink but putting pressure on him. communicate with him and ask him the REASON.then if its really over then let go. the kimochi will maybe take a long time but you must really learn how to let go.ya. when he really says its over and theres really no negoiation, give him a smile and wish him happiness. that will do both good.
whatever you are doing is just your own yi xiang qin yuan on your part.he may not even care. the sun still rises.the night still falls. your unhappiness doesnt affect anitink, anibody. but you certainly affect your dearest parents, closest friends. cheer up and dont tink you are just putting on a brave font.forget that rubbish and be REAL happy. love is just a small phrase in life. there are still more important things in life like family, friends, career and many many more. life is more than wad you tink.
if you feel really sad at times, go to wide places, wide fields, reservoirs, beaches. look at the clear white seas. ya.then you will know there are other things that matters other than the tiny un pleasant love life you have. most importantly you must rmb that you dont put up a brave font and tink thats cool or wadeva.be REAL happy. be happy from the heart.thats even more cool. then you will experience a whole new world.
ok.share my ren sheng jing yan.haha.in the short 14 going to 15 years of life i have experienced, i have an lianed a person for 4 years?AN LIAN ok??haha.even worse.notink ever happened between us.haha.it maybe infatuation but i don even have a chance to noe if it really is.ya.4 years ok?!?!its like nearly 2/7 of my life till now. but notink really happened.not even as a friend? shi bai la. i have tried to get closer to him but still notink happened. haha. this kind of thing.destiny la.or perhaps at this time appearance. youngesters.haiyo. tell you, the real experts is really all this kind of ugly ugly pple. they noe and they really learn to let go. and they will earn the adjective cheerful and bubbly. they noe notink will come out of this waiting stuff and they will just let go till they find the real one that really doesnt care the size and everything? they just love each other. ya.thats true love. like the S.H.E MV also...
so cheer up!tada~you still have US!!although its belated^^
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